I JINXED MYSELF PART#2

Have you ever had dreams so real and it turns out to be true? I have many times. Especially during big change in my life. All things can be worst. I guess I could be dead or whatever. In life, we make friends, friends that become closer friends, and friends that become best friends. (Meaning people you will never fucked over.) And we love to hurt to feel pain. let’s just say it’s a good thing I only wasted one year of my life with someone I thought I knew "oh so well"... I guess I always knew the day would come. But just refused to give up on the idea that it would work. And growing up that’s what I was taught. You work hard, and you will succeed. But sometimes, truth is uglier than we all think. Not only that, I hate getting screw over by people I consider close. This is a big hit... sometimes I don't even want to get up anymore...

i jinxed myself...

life has a funny way of picking you up, and then smash your head, watch you fall on your face and stab you in the back. this is always has been the story of my life. when situation starts, its best to keep it close to yourself. this is what i have learned thus far. i had a close friend ended up making things wrost for me. in many ways making a joke amongst people i don't know. because of his misunderstanding, i am now a jester... its funny, i used to be such a strong person in this world searching for my weakness. i found her, she made me feel. and up until now, she has been the only one that can cure me and break me. of course all these things that i'm saying may make me look like a total sissy, cut my wrist, dye my hair black, start writing poems, paint my finger nail emo kid. but then again, i always think its important to be able to express ones feeling down to the bone. this means i really thought about it and can understand myself and maybe others. i can go on and on. but i think i'll leave it be. its a sad time for those of you who has seen me at my best. things are a little different now... because a part of me that has made me who i was really took a bullet to the head. i admit, i have been drinking a little too much. during work, i'm still a machine. but after work... its a different story.

2011 WITH A BANG!

good bye 2010, you are so last year. thank you for all the memories. you have proven to me that life sure has its ups and downs. summer of sam 2010 was a blast made new friends, rekindled with my bo. learning to move along with life and not so much against it.


its now 2011, with new hopes and dreams to be shattered. the start of 2011 has already start off on the wrong foot. i hate money... here is why.

the us dollar is weak against the yen. so price increase on everything jdm. including one of my fave, rays engineering wheels. however, one company is still holding up their end for their customers. tein is not doing a price increase. oh thank god for that. if all these prices keeps going up through the roof. this whole jdm thing is gonna be hard to stay to not only sell to others, but even put a stop for me.

i hate money and i already hate this year...